My schedule involves the bright, loud, neon pink of “Legally Blonde the musical in the evenings, and what I’ve very affectionately named “depression camp” during the days. That maybe seems odd to be stating, but I do think it’s pretty important to say. I say it because mental illness looks like absolutely anything. To some, at some times, it is debilitating and steals all energy, but those same people also have times when they’re the person dancing beside you in a musical. My
Today I’ve been thinking a lot about contrasting emotions. This is mainly because of the huge amount of both fear, and courage that I get from facing things that scare me. This is really apparent in topics I’ve already been quite open about, such as… being open. It scares me every time, but it makes me feel a little more stable as well. Something I really care about is checking in with people in an honest way. It’s important to remember that everyone needs check ins. Everyone
I felt like I lost my ability to get out words again for a while over the last few weeks.
I eventually found myself back in hospital. At first, I saw it as an indication that all of my work to find stability over the last few years has been useless. But then, I began talking. I heard myself use words and tell my story. I am someone who went through a time of complete silence. I felt talking was an option I’d never have. But last week, I told my story to over 10 doctors in on
During hard times, it’s easy to feel far away from people. The first thing I was able to write, after a long time of feeling silent, came from a surge of courage as I remembered what Queen’s Professor, Kim Rendors taught me on this subject. As a first-year Queen’s student, I had the pleasure of meeting Kim this year. The drama department, and Theo felt like home to me very quickly, and Kim was a large part of that feeling. I believe she must have changed the lives of everyone